Jealousy

Its such an ugly, undesirable trait right. It can cause you to come off as a “stuck up, bitchy” and sometimes crazy person, causing strains in all relationships from friends family to boyfriend/girlfriends. Usually its an emotion which stems from a sense of insecurity and anxiety rather than bitchiness.

I get jealous extremely easily.

Of other people and certain situations. The littlest things can make me so mad, and really get to me. To anyone else it will just seem like something minor and they will be easily able to brush it off their shoulders, however with me that “minor” thing will stay stuck to my shoulder and hover over me. Until I finally get over it and let it go. Or until I get jealous of some other ridiculous thing. The annoying thing is I know its wrong, I tell myself all sorts of things like “Stop getting so upset/pissed off over something so ridiculous” and I remind myself of all the horrific things that are happening to people all over the world.

I guess everyone gets jealous though in some way or another, we just don’t like to admit it because it shows a part of you which is essentially vulnerable. Everyone who meets me assumes that I’m this strong, fierce person, which I am but there’s so much more to me. Inside I am actually a sensitive soul and the littler things get to me more than you could ever imagine. I guess I just need to stop dwelling on things so much and focus my attention and energy on more important things. As Keri Hilson sings, “Jealousy’s the ugliest trait, don’t ever do it!”

From now on I’m definitely going to remember the quote below whenever I feel the green eyed monster creeping back into me.

“Ignore jealousy. Instead, admire another's beauty & let it inspire you because tearing them down will only show others just how ugly you really are”

March 11th – Japan earthquake

The huge mass destruction that Japan suffered as a result of an earthquake is unbelievable. The images and news reports are truly heartbreaking and my thoughts are with all those affected. When disasters such as these occur it really does wake you up and open your eyes to the real issues that are happening across the world.

You stop being so self centred and think yeah okay I might of missed the bus, I might of had an argument over something minor with a friend or I might be fuming because my flatmates made the kitchen a mess, but its not really the end of the world.

There are much far worse things happening in the world to other people that thankfully you are not having to endure. You stop taking things for granted and begin to appreciate the smaller, finer things in life such as clean running water, a safe house and clean clothes.

However, it’s quite pitiful that it takes such a big tragedy to occur in order for us humans to start appreciating life more. Living in Britain we are on the whole rather lucky that we don’t suffer from natural disasters such as earthquakes, tsunamis or tornados.

If there’s one thing that I’ve most definitely learnt since coming to university, it’s that life is way too short and time most certainly is always flying past. Therefore I think it’s essential to live every moment as if it could be your last. I know that sounds extremely cheesy but its true; relish the times you spend with your friends, appreciate and show more love for your family, enjoy the littler things in life whether it’s a bowl of coco pops or a hug and most importantly always try to remain happy and positive because you have no time to be sad. In the words of Nicki Minaj and Drake, “everybody dies but not everybody lives!”

Altering your skin denying your heritage?

Jamaican dancehall star Vybz Kartel has been recently scrutinised under the media spotlight for lightning his skin through the use of bleaching creams. He claims that he lightens his skin to ensure that his many visible tattoos stand out more. However, many of his fans have been outraged and keen to voice their opinions as the majority of them are against this act of his.


Now I am all for changing the way you look in terms of changing your hair colour, your dress style etc, but altering the colour of your skin is definitely a huge drastic change! I can definitely see why so many people across the world are upset and angry as Kartel serves as a big role model amongst the Jamaican community. It can be seen that his attempts to whiten his skin sends out the message that lighter is better. For many centuries, white has been seen as the symbol of prosperity and superiority. More and more celebrities are endorsing this trend which echoes the belief that they too believe this is true. For example, Beyonce has been photographed lately with a lighter complexion and Barbie blonde locks. Undoubtedly she is a role model for many youngsters from all sorts of backgrounds; I grew up listening to Destiny’s Child and admired all three of the young singers. Therefore it can be seen that she is sending out the wrong message to young minds everywhere.





Kartel has fought back saying that his lighter skin is no different to white people using fake tan. However look where that has led the world; millions of men and women across the world have become so fixated upon having “sun-kissed golden” skin that they resort to using all sorts of different methods. As a young teenager myself I have seen how before every single night out, all of my girlfriends must first dress them selves in instant fake tan. Whilst this is just a temporary change, Vybz Kartel is that of a permanent change and I personally I believe it is an utter shame when anyone feels like the need to change the colour of their skin that they live in.


Recent studies have also shown how many bleaching creams contain high levels of mercury which can potentially cause kidney damage! It is astonishing to see the lengths that many people are willing to go to when attempting to alter the way they look. I understand that from time to time people wish to change the way they look. I have previously had light brown/blondish hair and now have red hair. I’ve also worn green contact lenses on many nights out but its not a look I have become fixated with. I am very proud of my golden Indian skin and dark brown eyes as I believe all these features unveil part of my character and who I am.


The fact that Kartel has compared his actions to the same as women wearing wigs, dying their hair, wearing fake nails etc is just ridiculous in my belief, and actually highlights the fact that perhaps this is all about him being troubled about his image. At the end of the day its his body, his skin and his choice to do whatever he wishes with it, even if it does provoke a lot of controversy.

Lupe Fiasco - The show goes on

Absolutely love this song at the moment, always have to play it first thing in the morning!

Valentines Day!

Has been a weird strange day ever in terms of coincidences!

For those people who know me well, I am quite a weird person in terms of strange things are always happening to me,. For example, I frequently say things that are on peoples minds before they say them or can correctly guess random things about others. Little random things happen to me too, and only so many things can happen to me before I can say “oh its simply a coincidence!” hah so anyways im going about my day as you do just walking back from the library, standard procedure. I then suddenly bump into someone who I haven’t really seen or spoke to properly for a good three years. I anticipate things to be awkward and surely enough we have the most static uncomfortable conversation as we run through the obvious “how are you, how’s uni, how’s your course” questions. Thankfully we quickly part ways and for a minute or two I’m left thinking wow that was strange. Even stranger since I’ve seen this particular person once on a night out and the situation was completely different then; we both ran to give each other a hug and had a legit conversation. Sad isn’t it how your relationship with someone can be completely different when the both of you are intoxicated.

Anyways, minutes later I then see another person who I haven’t spoken to for a good three years; my old best friend (whom I am no longer on talking terms with.) I’ve actually seen her one other time and we both exchanged smiles; a smile which occurs once more. Real or fake? Who knows but it’s a smile nonetheless. I find it so peculiar how in this world you can grow so close to another person, share so many positive memories and actually care and love for each other as friends, yet years later find it hard to even exchange genuine words with another. As I walk off my mind is plagued with thoughts; if anybody had said to me years ago “you and your best friend will end up at the same university but you wont even be talking” I’d never of believed them! However many things have happened that I never ever would have believed. That’s life I guess.

Later on in the day I meet up with a random girl (I am selling her my carnage t-shirt, I don’t just make random acquaintances with strangers) and whilst I worry that I wont recognise her, I am drawn to her because I notice that she has the exact same bag as me. As she then pulls out her purse to give me the money, I see that we have the exact same purse! Weird or what.

My day ends nicely as I go out to dinner with one of my mates :) however whilst we’re talking away we discover that we have a lot of things in common. This eventually freaks him out more than me as I’m getting so used to this weird “coincidence” thing happening with me and other people now!